Archive for March, 2009

Pose of the Month - Crow Pose - Bakasana

Tuesday, March 31st, 2009


crow pose
The first time a teacher told me to try crow pose, I was practicing to a video at home.  Baron Baptiste’s students made it look so easy on the video, but even in studying photos of the pose, the physics of the posture didn’t seem feasible to me.  First there was the challenge of where to place my knees.  How was I supposed to get my knees up in my armpits, that just seemed weird.  Then, to balance on my hands seemed downright impossible.  But I tried it, and like a child, I fell on my nose, and I laughed and tried again, and again, and again.  It took a good three months of trying it everyday and thinking I’d never get beyond the baby crow of one toe on the ground before I had a split second of balance…just a split second because the excitement of it all overwhelmed me and I laughed myself into a fall again.

(photo from www.yogajournal.com)

But, that little taste of balance, that tiny smidgen of success made it even more fun to try again and again and again, day after day.  It quickly went from the most dreaded part of my practice (I’m never gonna be able to do this)to my favorite part of the practice (maybe today I’ll land it).  Then it happened, one day when I wasn’t even really paying attention, when my practice of teetering on and off my back toe got to be so routine that I could go over my grocery list while trying to balance.  That day, I landed it, and held it for five breaths, and could have held it longer.

That’s how crow pose happens.  It has to come from a place of play, a place of trying without attachment to success.  Crow doesn’t happen by trying; it happens magically when you stop caring if you ever get it.  The balance of crow only occurs when you give up control, perfectionism, and accept what is.

Virtually every time I teach crow pose to crow-virgins, someone falls flat on her face, and LAUGHS.  It may look scary, but the floor really isn’t that far away, and so landing on your face won’t hurt that bad.  It’s more fun to try and “fail” than to sit in self-pity and doubt yourself.  Crow brings us back to the child’s mind, the beginner’s attitude.  ‘If at first you fail, try, try again.’  When kids are learning something new, they fall, the fumble, the look and feel awkward, but they keep trying, they keep experimenting.  They enjoy the process of learning so much that once they master it, they want something more to reach for.  This is what crow pose gives us.  Access to the child’s mind and permission to be messy, sloppy, awkward, and fumbling.

Alignment

  • place hands like down dog.  This is your foundation, so establish a solid flat base at the palms of your hands.
  • at first, bend your elbows back like chatarunga, rotating elbows in towards each other. This pulls the strength into the core and protects the wrist and elbow joints.
  • bring your knees as high up on your triceps (by your armpits) as possible and LEAN into your hands.  Don’t kick up, just lean until one toe comes off the floor.
  • LOOK FORWARD - this is key.  Looking forward gives your body and energy the essential LEAN into the crow position, pulling the toes up off the ground naturally.  If you kick you are likely to go too far with momentum and not establish center balance.  When you depend upon momentum to move you in life, you lose your own sense of personal power.  Crow teaches you to trust your own personal power to lift off and soar.
  • Lift one toe, then lean forward, look forward, lean forward, look forward, lean until the second toe gradually lifts off the ground.  Activate the belly muscles to hold yourself in place.  Think of crow as taking baby steps, that we have to learn things by dipping in our toes, and eventually, letting go of the control.  When you let your last toe lift up, it is trusting of yourself.
  • Once up, drop your seat as close to your heels as possible.  Lift the heels, and drop your seat.  Activating the belly muscles and pulling in and up from the center will give you more lift.
  • Once balanced with the seat on the heels, fan your toes like tail feathers and begin to straighten your arms.
  • BREATHE!  It’s easy to forget to breathe as you are trying to balance, and then you lose the magic of the pose.

Modifications

  • for those with significant wrist pain and injuries, crow pose is contraindicated.  Avoid crow until your wrist is strong and stable again.
  • Baby Crow (one toe down) is a very humbling pose to take as you learn how to fly.  The name often holds the stigma of immaturity, but remember that Baby brings us back to the child mind, and this is where PLAY happens.  Allow yourself to play by switching which toe you use as your base.
  • Squatting Frog is a great option as your wrists ache or you are fatigued.
  • Once you have found flight and balance, begin to play with variations such as side crow and one legged crow.  Don’t let go of the playfulness that emerges with crow.

Abundance & Prosperity

Tuesday, March 31st, 2009

abundance

Everywhere I turn, the media is touting about these tough economic times.  The words stimulus, recession, economic crisis, bailout, and financial strain have become commonplace in our daily language.  Chances are, we all know someone, relatively close to us, who has recently been laid off, is struggling to avoid foreclosing on their home, or is looking into filing bankruptcy.  Just off the top of my head, I run out of fingers counting friends and loved ones who have been impacted significantly (job loss, business closing, housing struggle) by the “economic downturn.”

Festus Umeojiego, the minister at Unity South Church in Bloomington, MN said last week in his lesson, “I don’t believe we are in a recession; I believe we are in a re-organization of our approach to abundance.”  As the economy shifts and changes, so are our values surrounding money, and we are finding ourselves redefining prosperity and abundance.

I can attest to this re-organization personally.  Almost two years ago, I began to come to the realization that my yoga studio business was failing and would not recover.  I investigated all possible options and determined that closing the business and filing personal bankruptcy was my only option.  Throughout the process, I did and learned what most Americans are doing today.  I took a good hard look at how I was spending my money and cut every corner possible. First, I quit shopping.  Plain and simple, I didn’t set foot inside a store unless it was my local grocery store.  Second, I took steps to reduce my bills such as dropping my landline telephone and reducing my cell phone minutes, turning down the heat in my house and turning off the air conditioner, consciously turning off lights and living by the sunlight more, cooking more and going out less, driving less and walking more.  These simple steps then filtered into lifestyle changes that happened almost naturally.  I found myself cleaning out my closets and giving away things I don’t use anymore, bringing my own cloth bags to the grocery store, habitually picking up litter on my daily morning walks, sitting and talking with my spouse more instead of turning to some external source of entertainment, and so many other things.

I have met a lot of resistance and challenge in my own re-organization of my approach to abundance. I found that when I used language like “I can’t afford” or “I don’t have the money” I would get looks of pity, or feel pangs of scarcity and lack, which didn’t sit so well in my system.  So, I change my approach and started saying things like “I don’t want” or “That’s not for me” or “I would prefer” thus claiming my situation as a choice rather than playing the victim of my failed business and bankruptcy.  But then, the world around me didn’t seem to comprehend the shift I was making because my choices were not of the mainstream.  Case in point, my internet service provider was confused by my choices.  When I would call for tech support or service, they didn’t seem to understand that my internet service is not tied to a landline telephone number, or would try incessantly to sell me an upgrade to a cable television bundle, insisting that it would be cheaper.  Sure, I could pay only $33/month for internet service if I added $66/month for cable television, but $45/month for just internet service was still less money out of my bank account each month.  Instead of arguing with the sales rep about how much I would be saving, I finally just started telling them that I don’t have a television set.  Somehow, that confused them more.  Seems not owning a t.v. is synonomous to being an e.t.  Another example is when I was at the checkout at my grocery store and I handed the bagger my reuseable bag, they insisted on wrapping my ice cream in a plastic bag inside my cloth bag.  When I’d ask them to only use my bags, I’d get any number of rolled eyes, funny looks, or smart remarks.

That was a year ago, but now that the rest of the world seems to be experiencing what I went through two years ago, I don’t get the resistance so much anymore.  My ISP finally decided to assign a dummy phone number to my account and stopped soliciting me for upgrades, and the checkout baggers ask me before reaching for the plastic bags.  My friends and family are asking me about how to clear the clutter in their own homes.  In the meantime, I’m still living life post-bankruptcy: sans credit cards and loans, but also debt-free.  What isn’t paid for via blips on a computer screen in the form of automatic transfers and internet bill-pay, I pay with cash, the old-fashioned greenbacks and coins.  Somehow, having a wallet full of actual money instead of plastic representations has manifested into abundance in my life.  And now, as I read words like stimulus package, bailout, economic downturn, financial crisis, and recession, I get just a little bit excited that someday soon, more of the world around me will realize the abundance that is created through simplifying life.

Perhaps the best definition of abundance I have read recently came from the mouth of one of our nation’s first daughters, Malia Obama. In a very small passage in The Audacity of Hope, Obama quotes Malia when she was seven years old.  She asked him, “Dad, are we rich?”  He explained that although they were better off financially than some, they were not excessively wealthy.  She replied, “Good, I don’t want to be rich.  I want a simple life.”  From the mouths of babes…abundance is found in simplicity, not wealth.  This is what our shifting economy is teaching us.

Body Wisdom - Wrists - Control vs. Teamwork

Tuesday, March 31st, 2009

wristsI love this image of hands holding wrists because it shows our interconnectedness so beautifully.  We’ve all seen the images in movies of someone falling off a rooftop, and someone up above holding them by one hand.  As soon as they get a grasp on the wrist, the person is pulled back to safety.  Holding hands is an expression of endearment, but holding wrists is an expression of merging union, two hands becoming one arm, twice as long, twice as strong.

Energetically, when someone is grabbed by the wrist, it is an assertion of power as one can be pulled and pushed in any direction at the whim of the grabber.  In my one experience with an Aikido class I discovered that a very quick way to subdue an opponent is to bring attacker to a place where their wrist is bent ‘the wrong way’. However, a simple antidote to this victimizing scenario is to return the energetic exchange by taking the grabber by the wrist as well.  This merges the two hands into one arm, and the union becomes a partnership rather than a domination.

The wrist is where we hold the power of  teamwork, and where we hold the stress of control.

I often say in yoga class that those students who struggle with wrist issues are often those who struggle with ‘control freakishness’.   People who identify themselves as perfectionists are more likely to suffer from physical issues with the wrists such as weakness, tendinitis, strains, and even breaks.  Thus, an energetic cure or prescription for wrist pain is to find ways to let go of control in life, to delegate, to work in partnership or as a team player, and to let go of the insistence of doing things yourself and your way.  In essence, to surrender to the wrist grabbing opponent with the attitude, “if you can’t beat ‘em, join ‘em.”

For power vinyasa yogis, one of the most common points of strain is the wrist.  When you start to feel wrist pain, it can disrupt your entire practice as sun salutations, chatarungas, down dogs, arm balances and vinyasas all become challenged and painful, and in some cases, impossible.  When the pain gets to this point, where the poses are contraindicated and your doctors are telling you to lay off the yoga, that’s a sign that it’s time to give up control, to be a partner to the yoga instead of being the master to the yoga.

Questions to ask yourself when you struggle with wrist pain are:

  • where in my life do I insist on “my way or the highway” when I could be better served to compromise?
  • where in my life do I insist on doing thing by myself when I coudl be better served to delegate?
  • when does my commitment to quality become crippled by the impossibilities of perfection?
  • in my yoga practice, am I focused too much on doing things ‘right’?
  • on my mat, do I tend to push harder and go farther than my body may be ready because I’m trying to achieve the pose at it looks in the picture of the master?

Yoga Practice Prescriptions for wrist pain:

  • gorilla pose (padahastasana).  physically, the pressure on the wrists produces a tourniquet effect, stretching the ligaments and squeezing out the stagnancy.  Energetically, by pushing your toes (details) into your wrists (control) in a forward fold, you are energetically putting yourself in a position to remind your body that the details are best not controlled, but left to unfold for themselves.  When you grip your toes and your wrists in this pose, you will lose balance.  This energetically teaches you to give up the pursuit for perfection and to embrace the essence of quality as is.
  • full locust (salabasana) with your hands under your hips, palms flat to the earth.  Physically, with your hips on your wrists, you are anchoring your wrists in line with your hands and arms as foundation and also causing the same tourniquet effect of squeezing out the toxins.  Energetically, you are placing your wrists right at the connection to your root chakra, thus bringing the energy of structure, support, basic needs, and foundation to your wrists.  The wrists are working in tandem with the hands and arms as a foundation to the torso, as part of the team, to lift the legs.  This teaches you energetically to accept teamwork.
  • reverse namaste physically, this is the greatest stretch for the tender muscles, tendons, and ligaments of the wrist joint.  Energetically, placing your hands at prayer behind your back is symbolic of giving complete trust in your higher power.  With  your arms “tied” behind your back, you are allowing yourself to be guided by Spirit to take you into the right and perfect action.
  • partner yoga or acro yoga practicing with a partner will teach you to work as a team and to be able to give up control and learn compromise in the best interest of all parties involved.

Lifestyle Prescriptions for wrist pain:

  • delegate - allow yourself to give up some of the control of “it only gets done if I do it myself”.  You will not only have less on your ‘to do’ list, but you will develop more trust in those around you.
  • get messy - creativity and flow occurs best when things get a little messy and sloppy.  allow yourself to find that freedom place a little more and let go of perfectionistic ideals.
  • orgasm - one of the best experiences of giving up control occurs at the moment of climax.  The more you can experience and enjoy orgasm, the more you will be able to release perfectionism and control freakishness. (never thought your yoga teacher would tell you to have sex huh? well, enjoy it!)
  • compromise & surrender - especially when you feel like you are digging in your heels, try to give up a little more.  Release the control and see how much easier things are in life.

Fish Tacos with Pineapple Salsa

Monday, March 30th, 2009

I love Mexican food, but I love it even more with a fresh spring tropical flavor.  This meal is best prepared with a crowd…assign each person an ingredient to chop and contribute their own energy and love to the dish.

fish tacos

Fish:
1-2 pounds of solid fish (mahi mahi is a good choice)
juice from three limes
Cilantro - chopped
chili powder to taste
salt and pepper to taste

Mix lime juice, cilantro, chili power, salt and pepper.  Marinate fish for minimum of 30 minutes.  Then, grill, bake, or fry until cooked through.  Mash with fork until desired consistency.  Serve inside warmed flour tortillas with pineapple salsa and toppings of choice.

Salsa:
1 pineapple, diced
1 red pepper, diced
1 yellow pepper, diced
1 green pepper, diced
1 medium jicama, diced
1 bunch cilantro, finely chopped
1 green chili, minced
juice from limes

Mix all ingredients.  Serve inside tortillas with fish for tacos or with chips.

Guacamole:
3 avocados, softened and mashed
juice from 2 limes
sea salt to taste

Mix all ingredients.  Serve fresh.  To store extra, leave a couple fresh slices of lemon in the container on top of guacamole.

Toppings:
grated cheese
finely chopped green cabbage
guacamole
sour cream
hot sauce

The Power of Forty

Monday, March 30th, 2009

As a child growing up in Unity South Church in the late 1980s, I was always confused when my non-Unity friends spoke of giving something up for Lent. Most of them gave up the obvious candy or pop, some were challenged by their parents to give up fighting with their siblings, still others joked about giving up homework.

I never gave up anything.

Not that I didn’t pay attention in Sunday School. I knew that Lent was forty days (my friends had their countdowns). I knew that Noah spent forty days on the ark during the flood, Moses spent forty days on the Mount, Jesus spent forty days in the wilderness fasting and being tempted by Satan. I knew the stories.

I just couldn’t get myself to believe in a God that required me to suffer through floods, hunger, and temptations for forty days. It didn’t make sense to me.

Many years later, my yoga teacher published a book titled 40 Days to a Personal Revolution. He told me that “it takes twenty days to break old habits and twenty more days to solidify new habits.” So, I started the program in July, committing to six weeks of yoga practice, meditation, journaling, mindful eating, and self reflection, thinking that in forty days I’d know what habits I had broken and which I had solidified.

I never gave Lent or Easter a thought until the last day of the program when I realized that I had given something up for forty days. I had given up my fears, my anxieties, my angers, and my frustrations. Through forty days of wilderness on my yoga mat, I experienced my own sort of Lent in the summer, and I didn’t have to sacrifice my love of Snickers bars in the process! Finally, at 30 years old, I understood Lent.

So this year, as we near the end of the forty days of Lent, I can’t help but reflect on the power forty. They say “life begins at forty.” (I wouldn’t know, I’m not there yet). I do know this, that forty days of a commitment to anything results in a pretty powerful resurrection of something.

Adho Mukha Svanasana - Downward Facing Dog

Tuesday, March 17th, 2009

shoulderstandWhen a dog gets up, whether he was sleeping, lounging, or just hanging out, he always takes a big stretch before taking his first steps.  One of yoga’s most common poses is taken from the insight of dogs:  adho mukha svanasana, downward facing dog.  On a pooch, it looks so luxurious, the long curved back, the full open chest, the expanded shoulders, and the wagging tail in the sky.  To us, it is often awkward to expose our bums to the sky, stiff on our shoulders, and tight in our hamstrings.  But, imagine if we did this pose everytime we got up from sitting, those feelings would subside over time, and we’d learn to love the pose as our doggies do.

We all snicker when dogs smell each other’s butts, but they are not ashamed of their bodies.  Us humans, on the other hand, tend to be a little shy about putting our bums in the sky, and thus hold back from a full stretch. It can take years of practice before one becomes fully comfortable in the full expression of down dog, and we may never get the naturalness of it that dogs have, but we can try.

In holding down-dog pose, we pull in at the belly (third chakra) to open and extend through the heart (fourth chakra).  Thus, we are working from our personal power (third chakra) to express through our love center (fourth chakra).  At the same time, we are developing a solidarity to our identity, that we are unashamed of even our most vulnerable of spots.  To add a bit of humor to the situation, all dogs know that everyone’s shit stinks, but they are more curious about how that smell is unique rather than “bad”.  We can learn a thing or two from these pups.  And so, I invite you to put your bum in the air, pull in your belly to be secure in your personal power, and open your heart the world.  Besides, it just feels good!

downdog assistedAnd if you really struggle, ask a teacher or assistant to give you a little push.  Borrowing a little support from someone else isn’t a no-no unless it becomes a crutch and develops into co-dependency.  A good clean assist in down dog can give us a taste of why dogs love this pose so much as to perform it several times a day. One day, if you haven’t already, you’ll find yourself craving that first (and last) down dog of your practice.  It’s the big sigh, the deep AHHH, the remembering who we are.

(photo by Sheryl Braun - http://www.soulshinephoto.net/)

Alignment

  • Always establish your foundation first (are you getting the theme of this newsletter yet???).  Plant the hands in big #5s on the mat with the pointer or middle finger straight ahead and dial them inward by pushing down and in (like you’re opening a child proof pill bottle).  Put the weight on the “triads” the space under the first finger and thumb knuckle pads to release the tension in the wrists.
  • Roll the forearms inwards while at the same time rolling the upper arms outward.  This “dual action” opens the space at the neck and shoulders and pulls the energy up the arm bones into the stronger muscles of the trunk, supporting the pose from your core instead of your limbs while at the same time sucking the muscles into the bones to protect your weight from falling into the more tender spots of your joints.
  • Draw your shoulder blades away from your ears, pulling more of the energy of the pose to the core of your body.  It all lies in the core baby…the CORE!!  By pulling out of the shoulder blades, the pectoral muscles can stretch and open, thus releasing the compassion and joy inside your heart (remember that playful puppy?)
  • Anchor your feet on the balls of your feet with gentle pressure into the heels to extend the achilles.  Your heels may never touch the ground.  There’s no prize for heels on the floor, so don’t fret about it.
  • Be careful not to get too caught up in the details of the pose, this can be done energetically by lifting your toes slightly.
  • Keep a soft bend in the knees at first.  This allows room to rotate the pelvis and play with your tail.  Explore the point where the hamstrings insert to the glutes by rotating at the pelvis to find a place where you feel properly supported - solid - yet open through the back of the legs.  From there, gradually work to straighten the knees.  Again, there’s no prize for straight legs.
  • At the same time as you feel supported by your legs, play with the rotation of the pelvis to find a solid connection between the root, sacral, and core chakra energies.  Pulling the pubic bone ever so slightly towards the lower rib cage, and pulling the rib cage slightly down and in will not only lengthen the spine, but activate the power center of your being and bring the center of gravity of the pose to be the focus of the pose.
  • Core baby…it’s all in the Core….remember that.  Establish the foundation first, then pull everything into the core, and the rest will fall into place.
  • One of the biggest mistakes in down dog is to overanalyze the alignment of the pose and get too caught up in the dual action opposite energies, and then you lose the whole essence of getting out of your head (which is below your heart by the way) and leading with your heart.  Canines feel their way into down dog naturally, so can you.
  • Let your body be your guide, not these convoluted heady alignment cues!

Modifications

  • In some cases, such as shoulder or wrist injury, full down dog is CONTRAINDICATED!  Please exercise caution, and consult your physician.
  • For extremely tight hamstrings, a slight bend of the knees is amazing.  You have to drop your ego (which tends to reside in the knees) to access the anxiety relieving quality of a good stretch in the hamstrings.  The insistence of locking the knees for people with tight hamstrings in this pose only stretches the backs of the knees (there’s that ego again) and doesn’t access the tenderness of the hamstrings, especially at the insertion point of the glutes.
  • For tender wrists (see alignment cue #1 above), place a folded towel under the heel of the hand to give a little lift at the wrist and put more of the weight into the knuckles of the hands.  Then, ask yourself, are you trying to control the pose too much?  Wrists are where we hold control issues.
  • A wonderfully tasty modification I call “Puppy Dog” gets all the energetic benefits without the extra strength and physical strain on the shoulders, wrists, or hamstrings.  “Puppy Dog” is like if Down Dog and Child’s Pose had a baby.  From Child’s Pose, lift your hips to ninety degrees (keeping your knees on the ground), then walk your hands forward to a full extension.  This way the weight of the pose is kept on the more stable knees and out of the shoulders and wrists entirely. You still get the length of the spine, have the capacity to work the strength of the core (third chakra) and the opening of the heart (fourth chakra).



Body Wisdom - Low Back

Tuesday, March 17th, 2009

In this time of economic recession, housing foreclosures, and employment instability, all the material things that symbolize support are exhibiting signs of shaky foundations. In the last month alone I have had three family members laid off from their seemingly “stable” jobs, two of my neighbors went into foreclosure, and my junk e-mail box is starting to fill with ads promising “ecomonic stimulus”.  Although my job is stable, my mortgage is up to date, and externally I seem to not be impacted by the recession, I am surrounded by the energy of scarcity at elow back painvery turn.  So when my low back started to grumble at me a little more than usual in my yoga practice, I wasn’t surprised.  It was my body’s reaction to the heavy weight of the emotions of fear, worry, anxiety and stress in the world around me.

One of the biggest health complaints in America is low back pain.  More and more in my work in recent months, like myself, clients have complained of low back pain that often develops into shooting pains down the legs (sciatic nerve pain).  One of the chief functions of the low back muscles is to provide support.   The pain in our low backs (and that which radiates down our legs) is symbolic of the lack of foundation and the shaky structure in the world around us.  Even if we are not directly affected by the financial woes of the recession, talk of the recession is everywhere, and chances are someone we know has been impacted in one way or another.  Our bodies are speaking to the lack of foundation in our worlds.

The muscles of the low back connect to the muscles that wrap around the front of the hips and into the pelvis.  The pelvis is often referred to as “the mother of all movement” because this is the point at which all movement of the lower body originates.  It is from the hips that we step into and out of action.  Thus, when our foundation is weak, we feel tentative in taking further steps, our movement is limited, and if we aren’t careful, we begin to feel crippled.  Ironically, any physical therapist will tell you that what your back is craving more than anything is good healthy movement, more often than not, stretching, and usually in ways we aren’t accustomed to moving our muscles.  Low back pain is simply our bodies telling us to stretch out of our cramped little boxes to view the world from a fresh new perspective.

What I remind each of my clients and prescribe as an antidote to this crippling pain is to refocus their attention away from the scarcity of the modern materialistic world onto a new perspective of the abundance of the spiritual world.  Mother Earth is the ultimate provider, so by connecting with Her, we understand on a spiritual level all our needs are always met. This can be done by performing a number of grounding yoga poses (ragdoll, triangle pose, straddle forward fold, pyramid pose, chair pose) that reconnect our physical bodies with the nurturing love and support of Mother Earth below our feet.  Furthermore, if we look at the ’scarcity’ consciousness in our world today as a lesson to let go of materialism, addictions, and hoarding attitudes we can then learn to appreciate the spiritual abundance of love, compassion, joy, and expression that holds no monetary value.

I’ll offer my own experience as an example.  Two years ago I found myself in financial duress, like much of the world is experiencing now.  I was forced to take a good hard look at my economic situation and really assess my fiscal priorities.  Over the course of several months I learned to make some hard sacrifices including cutting off my cable television, my land-line telephone, cooking more vs. dining out, and shopping for new clothes in my own closet.  At first it hurt.  It hurt a lot.  But over time, and I realized that many of the hardest sacrifices were labored decisions that had little to no impact on my daily life (I never used my landline phone anyway).  I learned how to save money in small increments, to darn a sock (Grandma would’ve been proud of me that day), to cook my mother’s famous lasagna and make it last two weeks, and I remembered how to read a book cover to cover, just for fun.  Oh yeah, I majored in Literature in college.  Through reading, I rediscovered some of my most passionate affairs of my life, with Huckleberry Finn, Holden Caulfield, and why I’ve loved the color purple since high school (thank you Alice Walker).  My world has since expanded to an abundance I could not have imagined three years ago.  I no longer fret at the number of digits in front of the decimal point, but instead can count my blessings of love, joy, expression, imagination and spirit on the hundreds of thousands of branches of the trees I walk by everyday with my dog instead of spending money to watch a movie.  Life is Good.